...my future

There are people I meet now and then or hear about on TV who, it seems, have known what they want to do with their life since they left their mother's womb. 


I am not one of those people. Sometimes I wish I were- I wish I knew exactly what I was meant to do and therefore could have a specific course of action for my life. I just feel like some individuals around me are going places and accomplishing things and I feel like I'm treading water or pedaling a stationary bike. 


Alright, I know that's not entirely true. My life IS going somewhere, but at the moment, I just don't know quite WHERE that is. 


Maybe I've been afraid to commit my life to a specific path for fear that I'll get halfway down that path and wish I were on a different path. You know? Perhaps there is something out there that I could passionately give my life to, but I just don't know that it exists yet. 


Lately I've been getting the question "What is your dream job?" Honestly, I do not know. Saying I don't know is not the thing to say in a job interview, though. It makes it sound like I don't have aspirations. I do have aspirations, but I feel like I haven't found that niche yet where my passions can thrive. So recently I decided to answer that question by saying that I just don't know what's out there; in the mean time, I'm doing what I can to expand my skills and make connections with people to see where I end up. Maybe it sounds whimsical, but my professor agreed with me that, yes, there probably are a lot of careers out there that exist that I, or a lot of people perhaps, just don't know about yet. 

It's exciting and overwhelming at the same time, thinking about all the possibilities the future holds, all the paths I could take. It can be scary, too, but it doesn't have to be if I take confidence in knowing who holds the future. Jeremiah 29:11 is a comforting promise from God:


"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (NIV)


A hope and a future. That doesn't mean it will be easy-going figuring everything out or that I won't make mistakes, but God knows where He wants me to be, and He'll get me there one way or another.

There are many life adventures to be had, adventures far greater than what I can even imagine right now. So maybe it's OK that I don't know where I'm headed in life. What matters most is that I live in the present and give each day to Christ; He'll take care of the rest and lead me day by day in the way I should go.

But I trust in you, LORD; 
I say, “You are my God.” 
My times are in your hands - Psalm 31:14-15 NIV


   Desperate, I throw myself on you:
      you are my God!
   Hour by hour I place my days in your hand - Psalm 31:14- 15 The Message